• ## the fear of ISIS

I felt i needed to express my feelings on this whole attack on pairs ordeal. first and foremost I want to express I am no expert on the mater and i have not been following the seria/isis/middle-east wars very well im no political annalist, im an electronics/automation nerd with anarchist ideals im not an activist i like to share my ideals by practicing them; helping people, educating people,encouraging others to do the same, etc. do I have my own opinions as to whats going on? of course.

first off this scares me  not in the way that “zomfg the terrorists are gonna get me”. this scares me because of the reactions like that theses attacks try to generate I’m no moron I understand the jist of how group psychology works and so does ISIS  they are using the existing Islamophobia and xenophobia the western and European countries have been fostering since the golf and Iraq/Afghanistan  wars(and even befor that for France with the colonialism of north Africa) . i don’t denounce the fact that theses are terrorist attacks and is a horrible wast of human life and they arn’t the only attacks to happen of this size and thats not even in the last month but its the first one that’s really published  (my guess is due to the fact that France is a NATO country). This scares me because it illustrates just how Islamophobic/ xenophobic and bigoted the west has become. i don’t have TV so i rely on the internet for information but i assume that my facebook/ youtube feed mirrors fox, cnn,radio canada,msnbc quite well due to having more than a few family/friends/coworkers that are quite right wings or moderates and subscribe to fear mongering/ sensationalist  blogs. i do take the time to read them from time to time and it annoys me because of how skewed the articals are (the same goes for both sides of the political spectrum critical thinking goes a lomg way)

so anyway this scares me because I had hoped more people would see threw the fear of whats going on and the underling xenophobia that ISIS is provoking to bolster there numbers ISIS is not stupid they know what they are doing they are using social media and psychology to recruit members from the west from what i have seen they are not running this as a dictatorship like AL-quida and the like did with rich leaders at the top running things from there palaces and bunkers i.e. Stalin,Hitler muslilni Mao, Hussein, Kim but as a friendly (ablate extremist) come help us because you are different and we understand you recruitment almost socialist organization they want to create a religious war by making people fear Islam I want to iterate that due to my parentage and where i live i have been around Muslims for a long time almost every person that i have met who practices the religion are some of the nicest  down to earth people i know granted there are PLENTY of ass holes out there just like every religious or ethnic group (save for Buddhists and Taoists)

tl;dr: I guess what i want to say is the fact that the attacks created such an anti Islam/ Syria/ refugee response among so many people and governments scares me  If I had the space and money to sponsor a few Syrian refugees or a family i sure as hell would offer them a place to stay and food, however I’m a broke student with a small apartment thats only capable of housing me and my partner at the moment

And to all of those people that live in a country that has been attacked by ISIS, regardless of where when or why I wish you the best of luck and safety and i wish i could offer more than a long rambling blog post on an obscure website.

I want to reiterate I am NOT a political expert, nor am I well versed in the politics of the Mideast and Europe(hell i had to make sure that  Nicolas Sarkozy wasn’t still president) I am of north American heritage all information posted here is pure opinion, observation, speculation, and rhetoric

• ## petty theft

So today my car was broken into and I had 5 things stolen 1 backpack (which contained my laptop (Lenovo G500S), notebooks, school books, some electronic components (possibly a bread board), solder, My TI-83 plus (which i’ve had for 8 years) and a wireless mouse) 1 5v 2.5A usb power supply and 3 usb cables (one new one from a dollar store, one P.O.S. hydra cable (has 5 different outputs for all the common charging applications) and one half working flat cable (power was good but data lines severed) funny thing is they left my shitty gps that’s sitting in broad daylight.

Of course they break into the 10 year old  Hyundai elantra instead of one of the 15 other newer cars on the block that probably has more valuable stuff and no alarm system on top of that they scratched the shit out of the door frame trying to get in. I just so love when (probably) poor people rob other poor people to get by thank you capitalism. this year i made ~$10K I have to pay rent, insurance, gas, utilities, and food. so i cant afford to buy another$600 laptop for school or the replacement books for classes. hell thanks to government policies because i am a student i am not eligible for unemployment in the winter which i pay into all summer long. so i save most of my disposal income (the rest goes to my annual out of town trip) to make it through the winter (i am a seasonal employee). its not my longest rant but i just felt i had to wright about it and i don’t want to make the woe is me woe  is me pitty me for bad luck  am i pissed that it happened? fuck yes. can i do anything other than pissing and moaning yes and i already have (called the pigs, and the insurance company) I just needed to get it off my chest.

well the next thing i have planned to do is make a blinky light circute to fake a car alarm depending on what i have in stock i will either do it with a 555 or build a j-k flip flop  anyway 20 minute project for later ( i might investigate building my own alarm system period me thinks arduino based and Bluetooth for disabling) first i need to finish cleaning my apartment and file the police report for insurance money.

• ## WELL we aint done yet

thanks in huge part entirely to ALostEt3rnity beefgir has been funded for another year.

at this moment i am pulling a full backup of beefgir.net. currently no one will have access to the site because the domain is redirecting to the eulogy page and will probably be fixed tomorrow sometime i think we all need a little break after the stress of losing a beloved website  until then  the fourms from febuary are still up (i will take them off line once beefgir.net is backup)

one thing i did not expect from this is how emotional it is to loose a website like that……

@1:40 pm EST

http://beefgir.net is live again

• ## Beefgir down maybe for good

Bad news guys it looks like we wont be able to cover the cost of the host anymore neither beefgir nor myself can front $160 US to pay the host which may result in account termination beefgir is going to put something together on freewebz because my internet connection cant handle the load that beefgir.net receives i have a 12000/600kbps connection (adsl2+) and that’s$481 CAD a year or about 5% of my annual income I am sad to see it go but we all saw it coming and beefgir is happy that it managed to keep kicking for 10 full years

update

any way he has made one hell of a goodbye page http://beefgirsgoodbyb.webs.com/

• ## Beefgir down

@1 30pm est (11-3-2015)

hay all beefgir forgot to pay his host so we are out of a the house for now i will have a fourm on here in a fewdays if all goes bad i have a backup of the beefgir forums some where from a couple of months ago and could probably host them here if necessary

@2:30 pm est

UPdate

good news and bad good news i found an SQL backup file from feb 2015  (both good and bad)

bad news is it was from a pratial complete arcive so its missing all the website data (including the fourms directory) I have another archive (tar.gz) that should have that directory but its partially corrupted and winrar doesent want to extract it partialy i will try to extract it onmy linux machine once it transfers (6gb archive)

@3:00 est

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i wasted a bunch of time with bad archives i use for checking transfer rates on my network just to open up another hdd and find a perfectly intact archive with the full site intact (feb 11 2015) so now i SHOULD beable to just copy paste the fourms to here and install the database and the clock will be set back to febuary

@3:50

database is installed now just coping over fourm files  due to permissions this is a mild pain in the ass extract fourm to desktop transfer files to server (not web directory) sudo copy it into the webdirecty change ownership to web user and set proper permissions but almost done fyi this is 8887 files on the fourms

unfortunatly it takes along time to transfer over lan because for every file the server and client need to create a hand shake packet the client sends a packet with the address of the server the size of the file and some other info, the server acknowledges this and the client begins cutting the file into data packet it sends to the server which the server assembles into a file and will request any packets that it is missing once the file is transferred it will send a end of file packet to the client the client then starts over with the next file  there is more to it than this but it is the jist of the operation. I2C (usb) works in a simmlor way but with diffrent methods of checking the file  and is controlled entirely by the host device

problem is the handshake process is slow so when you need to do it for over 8000 files that are only a few kb’s its much  slower then sending 1 big file of 700mb (this is part of the reason why archive files exist)

@4:30

the forms have gone back in time to February 2 2015  and are now live at killernat.com/forums

• ## Autism in standard education

Well here goes. This is a personal rant. I have never been expressly diagnosed with autism as i have never had a psychologist/psychiatrist  long enough  to be formally diagnosed due to finical issues or to life i.e. moving out of country.However it has been strongly suggested by therapists that I likely have autism spectrum disorder or Asperger’s syndrome.  Including my stepmother who was an adult social worker with a masters in psychology (i even found her copy of DSMIV that had the  page on AS bookmarked and heavily annotated with references to my activity where the rest of the book was fairly void of markings.). Early on in school (long before i ever saw a psychologist) i was put into learning disability programs at school partly due to an early speech impediment.

Any way school has always been a very strange mix of extremely difficult and painfully easy and the constant social interaction would leave me drained at the end of each day and in the morning with never enough time to my self especially in high school and middle school (granted during most of that time it was only my father and i). But it was a difficult for me to study because the last thing i wanted to do was think about school and all the social crap i had to put with there. This has had the detriment of  me becoming weak in math  because this was the only subject that  I had any trouble with in school that i could prevent by actively studding (languages have also been my weak point but my mind dosn’t work well with spoken languages period) so that resulted in me just scraping by in each math class, where every other class i would be getting high marks to the point that i was purposefully putting wrong answers to keep my marks below honer roll level  (i have been on the honer roll once at each school i have attend just to prove i can get there with little effort). I kept my marks back to avoid the expectation and the added pressure from my father and teachers.

any way back to the point of being autistic in school  my problem is the huge over baring social aspect to it  no mater where you go there are people and unless you live near to the school you cant go home between classes  so you stay and try to find a quiet spot  that has only few people. This is especially true in college  every “quiet space” is filled with 80  some odd people making noise, moving around and in general making things more uncomfortable for those of us who truly need the quiet and isolation  just to cope on long weeks this results in me missing days of school just because I need to recover my social energy. in my school i have encountered problems with  trying to get some help. I was never good at talking t people and those i do try to just talk seem to automatically be suspicious of me this being the most true of the special needs counselor in my college i went to her initially just to try to talk and get some help with coping skills and information . she seemed to automatically think i wanted school accommodations at the time i didn’t even know they offered it  and she kept pushing for me to get some kind of document from psychologists that i haven’t even spoken to in years and of course they wanted to talk to me to even get a hand written note and i didn’t have the money for a session (\$250 at the time) and i was panicking and just wanted help i ended up nearly failing  that semester with no help from the student services i felt helpless  and depressed and stuck in a place where everyone seemed to think if you want help from the school you have a hidden  agenda. so i just toughed it out i guess and got into a different program at school. so here i am the last semester of program courses of my new program (i still have 1 or 2 semesters of other classes left before i can graduate )turning 25 with not even a college diploma to my name 6 years out of high school. however i have heard amazing news yesterday that i can get in to a university and have a bachelors of engineering technology with only 1 additional year of school (the university is a fair distance away however)  because of a deal setup between my school and that university as this would be my only real opportunity to get a bachelors degree because i have no desire to do another 5 years of school  i need to get on with my life.

to anyone that managed to read this whole thing: I thank you for listening to my rant or whatever this can be called and putting up with my horrific punctuation and sentence structure this  is just a raw outflow from my mind and the only way I could articulate my thoughts. I did try to clean it up and make it easier to read i just needed to clear my mind and this is the only effective way for me to do it when everything gets stuck in a mental buffer of sorts. and it makes me feel better.

• ## Ginger beer update

So its been a few months and I have used up most of my ginger beer. I say used up because of a few things. First  I didn’t care all that much for the flavor because i made it from an extract it came loaded with an artificial sweetener  (because it was supposed to be sweet)  so it tastes like a diet soda it dose have a nice kick of alcohol ~10%  and the ginger taste is good if you can get past the diet taste. I ended up giving most of it away as Christmas gifts. every one seems to have liked it though.

My next planned batch of beer will be a test batch of 8L  of Maple stout that I want to make from scratch.

• ## Bottleing ginger beer

I got my ginger beer bottled today YAY. now to let it do its second ferment for 2-3 weeks. I got 24 750ml bottles from my 5 gallon carboy (yay for mixed units)
I just used an extract for a base and added a lot of fresh ginger (i also should have reduced the sugar its way too sweet)

all the barefoot wine bottles are from the recycling bin at work i hope they can handle the pressure

• ## Headach = Arduino + PLC;

For my college’s open house I made an Arduino send serial commands to a Siemens s7-200 that in turn controls a thyristor firing unit to control the speed of a DC shunt motor. I can also send direct commands through a PC via the Arduino. Sorry for the short video I didn’t think about getting video until the last minute.
I will probably add more to this post at a later date

• ## Followup to vistaprint

so i got my vista print order about 5 minutes ago let me first go on to say the address labels are useless absolutely useless for their intended purpose. Because I used the template based editor I wanted something else ware the “address line fields” were so i put it there so I wouldn’t have to play with the formatting too much but of coarse they use the same fields for the “promotional” address labels. so I guess the only application for them is as a name tag.

On to the card itself. The paper quality is about what I expected, standard business card stock and the edges are clean. The font size is smaller than I expected i should have gone with 1 or 2 points larger the graphic print quality is ok but the bold text is full of white spots from low resolution printing and even the black text feels feathered because of the low DPI. I had a QR code put on my card and it has a white boarder and a thick boarder at that because of coarse they don’t give the option for a transparent boarder. In short don’t use vista print its a shady company that wants to up sell you on everything and give you the lowest quality print job they can.